I blanked memories
Not everything can be healed
Maybe I was kind?

When the light goes out,
Some think it can be re-lit.
-Not when its broken.

Two weeks left until
(Death. End. Fucked. Damned. Lost. Broke. Screwed.)
Unemployment Ends

In My Beginning

I have no more dreams
I've already used them up
That's why I can't sleep

I have no more goals

been there, done that, made my bed

That's why I can't work

I have no more faith

I want it back, but lost it

That's why I can't rest

I have no more strength

disease, fat, and apathy

That's why I can't grow

I have no more dreams

they were taken with my youth

That's why I can't grow

I have no more goals

my compass upon magnet

That's why I can't rest

I have no more faith

the world changed and kicked me out

That's why I can't work

I have no more strength

Weariness became a wraith 

That's why I can't sleep

dreams, goals, faith, & strength

I see opportunity

(where do I begin?)

Secrets

I have a real friend
This one's not made up, I swear!
We met once upon...

And my real friend

Does amazing jumping jacks

Its like in a dream...

My real friend loves me

We might have slept together

-No happy ending...

One time my real friend
Got in touch with me, and screamed.
I wasn't afraid...

Now, with my real friend
I can go even faster
running away is...

Every real friend knows
-Just like we all do, savvy?
understanding that...

Make a real friend cry

rainfall -not crocodile tears;

it is forbidden...

Its a real friend who,

provides in times of great need

it won't be long now...

No real friend can hide

secrets, lullabies, candy

there is no escape...

Does your real friend leave?

In the day or in the night?

I am always here

Agonizing sleep
somewhere beyond my window
is with another

Pandora's Secret

Inner honesty
Is a lie until  its told
Thus told as a lie

Strength

Behind my closed eyes
I pray for rest, peace, and strength
Also when I wake

Behind my closed eyes

All purity is blemished

Also when I wake

Behind my closed eyes

I run, glued to where I stand

Also when I wake

Behind my closed eyes

My hope collapsed in heartache

Also when I wake

Behind my closed eyes

I search as though in quicksand

Also when I wake

Behind my closed eyes

I pray for nothing.  At length

Also when I wake

Behind my closed eyes

He begs me Love hold my hand

Also when I wake

Behind my closed eyes

Hope crescendos in a quake

Also when I wake

Behind my closed eyes

He should let go, yet withstands 

Also when I wake

Behind my closed eyes

I'm Pure; veil of darkness shed

Also when I wake

Behind my closed eyes

I pray for guidance, grace, strength

Also when I wake