I'm not fat, really/

Amazonian, perhaps/

My body is wild

Ebb and flow are truth/

Shore is Moon moving water/

Only walks survive 

I will be nothing/

Much as I always have been/

When my love matters

Why won't such great sex/

And a great relationship/

Have me together 

They should make a, "match"/

"Live in my kids' school district"/

Or I'll find no love

I self sacrifice/

All relationships of lust/

So my kids learn... What?

If I were more dull/

Satisfied, happy, content/

I know I'd die old

I think aliens/

From cheesy sci-fi sagas/

Stand a better chance

At a game with men/

One fired me, one lied to me/

Both cheated both beat

Stop looking at texts/

The one you want isn't there/

Neither is his call

I'm hardly empty/

I fill myself with poison/

Makes life bearable 

I may be pointless/

Maybe it doesn't exist/

Still, I pray for love

Tectonic plates moved/

My stone heart's light almost burned/

Fear made it ice age

I must still believe/

Or I wouldn't feel such pain/

God, let peace exist

Another pot head/

NOT who I want for my kids/

But he's good for ME

How does my mind write?/

After I'm sleeping or drunk?/

My heart screams the song

I have so much love/

But loneliness is greater/

And I want it all

He takes his love slow/

While I'm apt to give it all/

Maybe he's not him?

I left a haiku/

No draft or publication/

He didn't comment 

IF I had no kids/

Would I choose to really live/

Or let myself fade?

I love how planes fly/

Faster than the speed of sound/

But slower than life

I am so afraid/

Of all of my tomorrows/

I can hardly live

I think I know me/

Why do I falter in doubt/

When I DO know me

People really suck/

Friends stick close in spite of it/

Thank the fucking Lord

Fucking girl novels/

Ego, money, vanity/

How do I hate it?

I'd cut my heart twain/

If I could feel love again/

Emptiness remains

He is not the him/

My heart has searched all my life/

Why is hope so cruel?

I am not stupid/

I am naive, and hopeful/

And that will triumph

On the TV shows/

The bad girl gets the good guy/

Why is good so wrong? 

Broke down for a beer/

Switched my workout for salsa/

Cinco de Mayo

Okay with alone/

Just me and my fucked up heart/

Fear opening up

I take so many/

Photographs in my memory/

The pen is too slow