I was never "Friends"

"Seinfeld" survived episodes

I'd watch to fit in

Sci-fy holds my heart/

Fantasy brings my soul life/

The real causes death

Will the crying end/

My eyes never betray tears/

My smiles choke all down

My reality /

Regardless of how dreamlike/

Falls short of my hope

Coy self- flagellant

How ancient is the practice

That helped bring you peace

born a horse woman

heaven and hell welcome me

I swim the wrong way 

Rings anchor my back

Wings bound trapping screams within

Immobilized mind