When God gave whispers/

My ambition overruled/

Until I was gone//

"Living" in blackness/

I felt what He was saying/

I didn't listen//

A possible man/

Who my heart is diving to/

Feels blessed -I'm fearless//

And this is one day/

Worth opening the full me/

Letting go the thorns//

I feel hope again/

Twenty years of wasted love/

May have been lessons//

I'm worth love I share/

I still have so much to give/

Lord, my heart feels him

Hope melts bitterness/

Letting it in takes courage/

God, help me be brave

I won't be surprised/

If I marry this stranger/

Because he gets me

Marriage Vows to a Lost Napkin

If Ben so and so/

Who I met two years ago/

November 2nd//

Could find me again/

At the BBC 'round ten/

I lost your number//

I've put too much thought/

Into a chance meeting there/

With my -then, blue hair//

I'm sure you've moved on/

I regret not risking all/

For you- a stranger//

It feels so naive/

But it's hope, not obsession/

That someone is there//

Accepts me for me/

Who turns me on by talking/

Can fight and love well//

Survive a dry spell/

Want to blend kids (though it's hard)/

Whose parents love me//

Do NOT worship me/

Find my inner beauty too/

NEVER pity me//

See me as I am/

Today is not tomorrow/

And I'll do the same

I need more lessons/

Life pumped holes in my visage/

I go back on stage

My voice once poured soul/

Youth singing too aged for time/

She seems so long gone

Crooning an ex-wife/

The drunk harmonica howls/

Lost in a past self

Drinking beer with Blues/

Wishing I were more noticed/

The perfect Sunday 

My friends won't judge me/

I want to be happy too/

Direction askew

My stimulation/

Intellectual banter/

But he lives so far

One night stand morning/

First experience relief/

I have no interest

Disappointment is/

A continuous cycle of/

Hope disguised as dreams

Too much investment/

This commodity of hope/

Sacrificial farce